What is What ! or ?

Don't know. Confused. This is how I feel most of the time . The world is insane. Or am I too sensitive to the world's complexities, perplexities and stupidities. This is how I think all the time. The absurdity has manifested in me. It is growing, growing huge overtaking my existence. The existence is ceasing, only the politics remains. Where is that beautiful world which was promised in my childhood in which I celebrate the vividness of my existence without being aware of it. Loosing myself. What is the problem for which either we have solutions or striving to find one. I don't understand. Thus my being is questioned. I see death at the beginning of the quest. And the journey continues.....